Dive 12x12

12x12 Acrylic/ Gold Leaf/ Green Leaf/ Glitter/ Resin. Ready to hang. 

Lately, I feel like a stubborn child that doesn’t want to go any deeper. Standing at the edge of the shore on a beach in America that is so swanky they bulldoze the seaweed off of it every morning. How many times have I come so far, only to stand at the very edge of the very edge and declare - too cold. 

Have you ever been far out into the ocean without fins or a boat or a board? It’s scary down there, if you start to think about it. So the trick is to stay present and not entertain those thoughts. Everything is happening but nothing is seen down there. The layers of glistening aquamarine for as far as the eye can see trick me into thinking that the peace above is also the peace below. From when I was a little girl (they called me the fish) my favorite thing about diving into water was the way that everything went silent. How I felt weightless, and in a different world. I didn’t have to hear anything, or say anything, and the density of that freedom has stayed with me. I couldn’t see, and in the absence of that sight I could feel it all. 

This painting is a portrait of letting go. Letting go of the fear of what can’t be seen and in its place - a glittering tapestry of courage and possibility.